Sunday, November 1, 2015

Words unsaid

There are so many thoughts that if i start writing it wont be a blog post anymore.
I packed my bags yet again , said temporary goodbyes to the awesome people I spent most of my life in Bangalore with and landed in this beautiful and much hyped city of London.

This was not the first time , I have been here before and  still wanted to come back for various reasons like doing some thing more challenging  by moving to a foreign land , living on my own and exploring life to greater extent  and the obvious reason of earning some good money .
The things were different this time and I did not weigh it in advance , when you go for  short trips you have everything sorted but when you move your base from one city  to another its a different game altogether.
I had to live with an Indian couple with a toddler, I was so skeptical about  having a mini human in the house but apparently that was the only good thing in that house. Even though the place where i lived comes in London it had nothing fancy that would make me believe that I worked  and lived in London. The transition as they say is never easy, the work place was nothing I thought it to be, people worked for 9-10 straight hours and my office had no cafeteria! People had lunch on their desk while replying to the emails , These things may look like small but when one goes through it its painful 
I cursed the time when i used to pray for this .
The pollution free environment or fresh fruits did not lift my spirit up , it did not give me the warmth I got back in my country.
But as they say and as i believe time heals everything, I moved closer to work , excelled the art of multitasking -lunching while replying to emails , its been 4 months and  things have got better . Yes , life is easy , it is structured , there is no struggle for daily chores as you end up doing everything by yourself , its a routine but even routine becomes a problem when you don't have the right people to share it with .
The fact  that  I miss my country hasn't changed , even though people are humane here but I have been a victim of racism ,  have heard abuses from the locals without any fault of mine, but one incidence doesn't make this place a bad place. It can happen anywhere. So we suck it up and move on.
I know a lot of people who want to settle outside, I use to be one of those but after coming here  I thought for what? Money ? Better Life? beautiful Weekend Breaks? Luxury?
Yes maybe  that's a lot to loose for something I crave  now, my country , my people,  the country that gave me my identity , or maybe its no

A wise friend of mine never wanted to move outside , I wondered why but now I know.
6 more months here before I come back , till then i will make full use of the time by breathing in lead free air, pampering my taste buds with all the exotic fruits , experiencing  the most beautiful autumn and enjoying last days of being a bachelorette ;)

P.S - Wrote this post 6 months ago never to be published , I leave in 20 days :)


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